Nochi no koyoi / Kiryu [R]

Kanji & Romaji: hiphopvomit
Translation: myself

Lyrics: Kurosaki Mahiro
Music: Kujou Takemasa

Note: Okay, this one might be truly disturbing for some individuals. Not recommended if you're a sensitive person. Like, really.

Aien kien / Kiryu

Kanji & Romaji: hiphopvomit
Translation: myself (with a wee bit of help of my friend's translation, thank you fam)

Lyrics & music: Sakai Mitsuki

愛怨忌焔 [Aien kien]

Love's curse burned by the flame of grief

Peeling off face's skin and then sewing on the disguise (1)

One     Two     Three     Four     Five     Six     Seven     Eight     Nine

Reciting to oneself over and over again

Hateful, yet beloved.... A puppet with a broken heart

One     Two     Three     Four     Five     Six     Seven     Eight     Nine

Deluded over and over again

"Love's curse burned by the flame of grief"

Black rain of wants lets the hazy moon fall into the darkness      The sea of vomit and excreta enjoys that abyss

Cut apart... Cut apart... Black rain of wants fades away     Eyes open in ecstasy

Distress, therefore I am here, tied to the empty reality

Detached last new moon is a dream coming through the emptiness

Last words that accidetally leaked out from a slit ellipse were

"………………." (2)

Cold hands are loosely hanging down     Behind     Sound of bugs

Footnotes:

1. A play on an idiomatic phrase: 化けの皮を剥ぐ [bake no kawa wo hagu] - to unmask one's true nature / intentions; lit. to rip off one's disguise / face's skin
2. Not really a footnote; I just wanted to note that when this song is sung, Mahiro makes khrhhrhrkhhr sounds here (choking!)

Discussion:

四字熟語 [yojijukugo] - Japanese version of unholy four-character idiomatic compounds (East Asians are apparently strongly keen on such things). My blog's title is an example of yojijukugo and so is aien kien (Kiryu likes to name mostly albums after yojijukugo or after something that resembles them). However, aien kien should be written as 合縁奇縁 not 愛怨忌焔. Therefore, we have a wordplay here. 合縁奇縁 most common meaning is uncanny relationship formed by a quirk of fate.
Let's look more closely though:
合 [ai] - to join, to meet, to unite etc
縁 [en] - relationship
奇 [ki] - strange
縁 [en] - fate (yes, this kanji has more than one meaning)
Also:
合縁 [aien] - buddhism derived term meaning connection of two people (mostly romantic)
奇縁 [kien] - quirk of fate, strange coincidence
Whereas:
愛 [ai] - love
怨 [en] - grudge, curse
忌 [ki] - mourning, grief
焔 [en] - flame
The funniest part is that characters above form by no means any particular words as they do in 合縁奇縁. After hours of thinking how to somewhat deal with that wordplay, I ultimately came up with love's curse burned by the flame of grief, but I honelstly have no idea whether it can be a legitimate translation or not.

I reckon, Mitsuki wanted to create a total opposite of the original idiomatic compound, considering the song's context. Well, context... I would like to tell you something about the moon in these lyrics. I believe it is a metaphor of a person. Beloved one, that is. New moon - meeting, whereas hazy (moon) stands for something that cannot be reached. What we have here is an unrequited love. But how does the subject deal with it? Simple: "if I can't have it then nobody will". Does that fit into a yandere archetype, this is a serious question. I mean, the subject loses their wits and kills their desired one. To sum up, love's curse means the hardship of an unrequited love and flame of grief is a simile to the commited murder.

As a summary:
Love's curse ≠ uncanny relationship
To burn ≠ to form
Flame of grief is just a cause, much like quirk of fate.

Whoa, that was quite a challenge. At the very end, a fun fact: I am quite happy with this translation regardless.

Zetsu wo nozomu / Kiryu

Kanji & Romaji: hiphopvomit
Translation: myself

Lyrics & music: Sakai Mitsuki





絶ヲ望ム [Zetsu wo nozomu]
Desire to perish



Floating on a twinkling flash     Gaze of immorality that one cannot hide
Forgetting one's reasoning      Instantly setting one's instincts free

As if I were robbed of everything     Certain people laugh in a rainy day
I always recall     Tears running in black and white

When living is painfully harsh     I look away from an injured heart
Living through, spinning life round (1)     Living is painfully harsh

Going round, the answer I've found is endless "despair"

I even tried to live peacefully     Ran away from that distress
Living through, spinning life round     Clinging to baseless "despair"

Going round, the answer I've found isn't really an answer
Live... Live... Live... The future I struggle to reach is a
"Return to its starting point"

Footnotes:

1. As in "to make a yarn"

Rant Discussion:

Mitsuki, what are you... Itoshiki Nozomu?
Well.
Do you know what will happen when you get rid of all kana in 絶ヲ望ム ? You'll get 絶望 [zetsubou] - despair. Despair is also what I went through while trying to translate the title, because 絶 [zetsu] is used in such a weird way and it is by no means used as a word in and of itself:
絶える [taeru] - to cease, to die out, to vanish
BUT
Aforementioned 絶望 → 望 hope
絶対 [zettai] - absolutely, totally → 対 opposite
絶滅 [zetsumetsu] - extinction (in biology) → 滅 destruction
絶好 [zekkou] - best → 好 like, pleasing
See? No good.

So I attempted find any good one-word translation for this kanji regardless. Actually the song is about someone suffering from a crippling depression. A person caught in an endless spiral of despair, who tries to live through, yet wants to put an end to his own life. Having this thought in mind, extinct might be a fitting word, albeit it does not sound good in a title. End is somehow not satisfying as well as vanish and die is too blunt. Frankly, perish is the best possible translation I could come up with.

ZETSUBOU SHITAAA, SONO KANJI NI ZETSUBOU SHITAAA!!

Afterword:

Recently I've got a couple requests for translations. Zetsu wo nozomu, Aien kien and Akai mi hajiketa, that is. I thought, it would've not hurt if I'd translated Zetsu wo nozomu, so here it is, however the remaining two... A friend of mine already translated Aien kien some time ago. I'd need to read that translation once again and analyze it. I know, it doesn't seem to be a difficult task, but by analyze, I mean to translate it on my own using my friend's translation as a base, because otherwise I won't be able to interpret the lyrics. Also, I wouldn't want my friend's hard work to be wasted. It may take me a while since the lyrics are really intricate.

Akai mi hajiketa though is a whole different story. I've already made a template for that song with a 2016/6/30 date on it and I temporarily aborted the translation mission due to its lyrics' abstract and bizarre form (seriously Mitsuki, reconsider your diet please). But I'll eventually (emphasis on eventually) translate that monster as well.

Please be patient. I focus mostly on Kiryu anyway, therefore, sooner or later, I'll do something about those songs.

Also! I'd like to thank you for every nice and warm comment I get here. Everytime I get them, I feel like I'm doing something right and my translations actually make any consistent sense. Thank you again!